Being 25 Someone..

Aah long time...But it feels as good and satisfying as it was ,the day I wrote my first post on this blog.Hmm...anyws.

&l·Sometimes I look into mirror and wonder...at this point of life...when am 25...two years back,though its a long period but still not that much long ....I could not imagine in my weirdest dream.. I wud be here..life is quite unpredictable...but here only lies its beauty..in its unpredictability.You never know whts gonna happen tomorrow.

&l· The biggest change of this year...job...stable professional life...kinda I always wanted.My work keeps me busy interacting with lots of people daily....different people...have to deal with different tempraments...nature..perspectives...attitude....n lots of things..and everyone is unique in his own way...sometimes its pleasant...sometimes irritating...but its always interesting for sure.By each passing day,I learn something.

      ·  Its been an year of change ...an year of drastic change..

At this age you start talking less..and listening more.You start taking life seriously.....means you start being coward...hmm dn know....but you are always thoughtful...of lot many things....you look before you leap.coz now none of your actions can be taken as kiddish...you have to be responsible of both ..your actions and your words.

 ·You start loving and caring your parents a li'l more...reason can be they dont seem that much rigid & authoritative as they used to...earlier or you now realise what its really like to be parents....and you are overwhelmed before them....or you feel yourself more responsible now...of taking good care of them.

  t; ·You identify with people easily now ...with whom you can be friends...with whom you may have issues..on the level of compatibility....so you start acting accordingly...shud I say you become more intelligent...ahh No.

Of course you look better ...and sometimes your best,you ever looked till date...this feeling is satisfying...and that day you love yourself a bit more...and may be someone else too.. :P

&  ·You are quite clear about what you want in your life and what you don’t.Can’t say whats the exact reason but you start feeling yourself stronger comparing to your yesteryears...stronger in no. of aspects.

Now you are living in one real world...no fascinations...you see things as they are...and when everything is perfect... you doubt.

     One more thing,you almost hate your relatives,who are left with no other job than to find you a right match.Once you get married....anyhow..means anyhow...than they will live happily ever after.HUH!

·You think about love ...you think about money...you think about future...you think about marriage... :P sm other time.

Life moves on a faster pace .

Jyoti Sahu :P

It's like.....any other day in a govt. office...it can be..lot of people in premises...buzzing noise all around...everyone seems to be quite busy...
He's a man of age around 40-45....dark complexion....with a bulky figure..put an application on my desk.I notice the name at the last and signature too.

I ,-"one minute Sir,but you will have to get them here.".
He,-"who?"
I,-"Jyoti Sahu." (with an expression-"who else?")

Saying this I put my head into work again,thought people really want their work to be done ,sitting at home only,take some time out yar.But soon I realise He's still here and ....about to ask something..but I don't get the reason.

I (look upon him ,try to smile even ,though fake)-,"Sir,get madam here someday,and it will take only 5mins.But she needs to be here for that purpose."
He(Finally gathers some courage ),-"but Why does she need to be here Ma'm?"
I ,-"I will talk to you only when Jyoti Madam wud be here."
He,"Are Ma'm but I am Jyoti Sahu only"
I(with real surprise in eyes),-"You are Jyoti Sahu?"
He,(in a low voice)-"Yes".
Till he completes his "yes",I dont know how( how kya anyone cud have done the same) ,
I repeated,-"You are Jyoti Sahu?"
huh!
Till Now everyone around us was aware that I had a doubt about his name...and his identity and don't know , many more things :P ..And people were looking at us...

He,-"Should I sign again in front of you?"
I,-"aaaa.....yes"(pleease..and don't shout after that :-S)
He signed again,and I found it was his sign and his "name" too :P
I smiled in best close-up smile(of gratitude..that he dint shout),
saying-"Ohh Sir ...thats fine,absolutely fine"

Who says, we always know when we are making a mistake?
I thanked to my God!
Pheww!! :P

A New Birth..

Its strange and charismatic alltogether how life unfolds itself... from one page to the other..other...which is blank..totally..like a long played song on a music player is changed..it gets your sudden attention...and you quite unlike it...when everything becomes a null....completely...Its like a beautiful painting on a canvas is cleaned up by a rag atonce...and now there's no color..no images..no sound...no emotions...no feelings..no hope...no dreams...no likes..no dislikes...everything is okay...and everything is not..and interestingly you are sure of one thing, you never get to know.."what wrong did I really do to get this"....

And gradually Life takes a "S" turn,I would say :P......and leaves you smiling. Each block of life itself connects to the right place.....& the music is On...once again.
"It" is like a new birth.

Today!

Quest

I wish I wake up next morning knowing what i want..what i want to do..what i have to achieve in life..where i have to go..what really can make me happy..where should i head towards...where i wud.find peace..if ever i wud... what's right for me and what's not...why d hell am living?

no single reason.

Life Teaches you!

Life teaches you...yes it does . I thought I knew myself...but I was wrong.I thought I had not been wrong...but I was wrong...I thought destiny betrays...but I was wrong..I thought things will never change..but I was wrong.I thought life has ended...but I was wrong.

Actually its real difficult sometimes to accept your faults..specially when you are going through tough time.....but as time grows and you see the picture articulating number of perspective then you smile and say..."ohh yar,ye toh hona hi tha.".


Acceptance is Bliss & Destiny has its own rewards!
:)