helpless..

I have never found myself this much helpless...i do not know whats going on..but i scare...

Have you ever been in a state....when you feel you are loosing control over yourself...you know that you are not feeling well...there's something wrong with you..but you don't know d solutions too...you are completely unaware of how you may react to something ..next moment...

thers something...contantly going on in mind,but you know you are strong enough to face it....you are trying to avoid it..ignore it.but d moment you think you have won,you find it standing right in front of you.

Things were perfectly okay with me...how could this happen to me....

Am trying hard to kick it behind and move forward...but it isn't leaving me...

am dying..inside..

Help me God...

Nothing At All..

It's amazing..How you can speak....Right to my heart
Without saying a word....You can light up the dark
Try as I may.....I could never explain
What I hear....when You don't say a thing

The smile on your face....Lets me know..That you need me
There's a truth In your eyes.....Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand.....says You'll catch me
Whenever I fall.....
You say it best....When you say Nothing at all

All day long I can hear people...Talking out loud
But when you hold me near....You drown out the crowd
Try as they may...They can never define
What's been said Between....your Heart and mine

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know ....That you need me

You say it best...When you say..Nothing at all
You say it best ...When you say....Nothing at all

(Ronan Keating..wonderful song with wonderful music.love it.)

IfOnly-

Don't know if its just a coincident or I feel like...whenever am going through some problem,things happen in a way and i get my answers .

Anyways,recently i'hv developed an interest for english movies..have seen some and one of my friends suggested me to watch "IfOnly" and in order he arranged it too for me.

I give you a brief incase you havnt seen it,

The story revolves around a young couple.Who are so much in love with each other.One night d guy dreams of a day,it seems like
any other day of their life but in end of the day girl dies in an accident.Apprantly when he gets up next morning,for a moment he gets scared seeing his girlfriend alive,he couldn't believe it was all a mere dream....well day starts in real,and things start happening d same way he had seen in his dream.He cudnt understand what all is going on and what shud he do? What if all the things he saw are going to b true..means if hes really going to loose her today.He is confused whether he should b happy for he has got a chance to fulfill her dreams,to live one more day with her or he shud worry for he will have to live all those moments once again,he'll have to see her going once again .He finds himself very helpless.
But he prefers to b silent and asks her what if she has only one day left.She very innocently tells him alot of things she wud like to do...and here begins a fight with time.He wants to stop time but all he can do is to fulfill all her wishes,may b by going out of his reach.He does everything she tells him.And the girl remains completely unknown to all of this.
And what happens at the end of the day is quite surprising.Though whole day what he tries is to stop time or change it anyway...but as he finds it impossible he starts going with it and in the end victory is all his.You know what happens in accident?...the guy dies..
It was touching...the story...the screenplay...everything.



Dont know what director's motive is But for me it has proved out something more than a mere love story.During past few weeks am fighting with something...yes,"Time".I did everything I could do to change things but for my utter surprise am there only from where I started...nothing could b changed.I tried so hard,called so many prayers to God,tried so hard,and at last cried my heart full... but all in vain.Nothing helped.I dnt know it isnt that am feeling like a looser or depressed one...but yes one thing for sure I have learnt,time is d most important element of your life.If its with you everything favours you o/w you would b at loss,no matter how harder you try.


Its only " Time",that makes you understand things,make your realise your faults,gets you know the value of things you possess,the value of moments you have lived once,the importance of people you had have around once.


Its better to respect it.
" The only way to win over Time is go with it! "
I read someone's blog a time before,and find some lines which he too had read somewhere...it touched me too.
"If ever you find yourself on a crossroads and you cant decide which one you should opt then choose anyone and walk on....it'll definately take you where you should b,no matter what choice did you make"


Now I have stopped fighting with it.opposing it....rather trying to sail in d direction its taking me towards.Its not a surrender..it leads me to have more patience,courage and confidence.Lets see what happens....

Quote

" Nothing is wrong in this world.....only if a right person with right cause doing it at a right time. "

NameCeremony

So finally we get a name for him.

It was js second day of 7th sem,and he was doing like we had our endsems right after two hours!!huh!

Takes "Encryption and Network security" ,though his lecture could be more intresting to us(us means intelligent girls-->our class has two groups,intelligent/ratttu girls.hope you understand this word "rattu" well),but he almost ruined its charm in very first lecture.
The topic going on was "Intro-Encryption and Internet Security".So,somewhere in between he uttered,"Threeets"..yea right it was, what you read.I at once jumped to my friend,sitting left to me, in confusion...and found her eyes towards me..I think we both were like...awe!...did we hear right,or he said something wrong..it was like we were the two true linguists in the world.Afterwhile he said something inbetween the lecture,"There are two things,one is Attack and other is Threeet(well..it was threat,till now we had come to a conclusion).He used this word "Attack" for atleast 20 times,in each succeeding line.And this way his name ceremony was done.[:D].He has got a new name,though unknowingly,"Attack".I think we tend to find a name for every teacher,asap.

Well his real name is"Subhash Chandra Maurya".Na Na,he has got no relation with "Chandra Gupt Maurya"(This came in my mind when first I heard his name[:P])

On a serious note,I think every teacher has a pet word,and uses it quite often.We had one physics teacher in first year,his name was ,"Clear",hope now you dont need an explaination.[:P] anyomore.And he used to utter this word "clear" so loud,like,"cleeeeeeeeaar"...uff.One more teacher I had in class 7th,her name was "Peechhe",[:D].Even if you are chatting on first row,right in front of her,she would scream like"ye peechhe kya horaha hai?"ye batain kyun ho rahi hain peechhe".
Now..I doubt if I too use a word repeatedly.Hope no one has done this to me ,till date[:-S].